The first thing to which most people point as the basic root of mind control programming is trauma. To a certain extent, this is true. The various traumas created by programmers are a key element in mind control training. But – trauma is not the actual foundation on which programming is built.
The difference between trauma and programming is that, in programming, there is an end goal toward which the trauma is used, with the trauma itself being merely a step in making the end goal happen. A trauma alone is merely pointless pain, and even in programming, the trauma itself teaches nothing.
Programming a mind (or programming an individual member of a dissociative system) involves shaping the beliefs and the world view of that mind/member, and then using those beliefs to impress an action or a set of actions. This is applicable to something as basic as a sexual slave or something as complex as a computer system that monitors and controls the workings of the larger dissociative system. There is no actual computer that gets implanted into the brain – rather, there is a part of the brain that is trained to perceive itself as a computer and to act accordingly – and while each part of our mind was separated by trauma and then was subjected to additional trauma in the process of learning, the trauma is not the programming. It is the message learned that is the actual programming.
Trauma is used primarily to evoke overwhelming emotion. The emotion is then used to make the programming, the message or lesson that represents the end goal, stick in our minds with tenacity. The emotional foundation allows programming to overpower any acquired logic, common sense, or other resistive measures we employ against it. The trauma is not the programming, but the emotion it evokes is what gives programming its power.
This might seem like a real nit-picking distinction. Who cares whether the trauma is the programming or is just a step in making the programming effective? It sucks either way, so… why does this matter?
But it is actually a very important distinction to understand if one hopes to approach and undo any mind control programming. It is critically important to separate the trauma from the message, and to understand that, although they are linked, they are not the same thing. They form a chain of progress – each link important, but each separate, and each requiring separate attention. Looking at a single link will not resolve the whole issue – addressing the trauma alone will not address the programming.
The chain of progress is: trauma > emotion evoked by trauma > message or lesson to be learned.
The trauma is whatever it is. For some programming, any trauma would be effective. The more complex the intended program will be, the more the trauma will be tailored to provide specific feelings on which the programmer can build.
The unholy triad of emotion on which programming is built is comprised of fear, guilt, and shame. If you think back on a time when a programmed response was triggered and look at the emotion surrounding the urge or idea or need, at base it will be at least one of these three.
Some programs, or some members of the group who have been heavily programmed as individuals, may operate or manifest with absolutely no emotion at all – but this does not mean there is not an emotional foundation. A program can build on the emotional foundation already in place. An individual may repress their emotions, or hand them off or spin them out to other members of the system, or have a mirror image or twin where one feels and the other does not, or some other means of disowning or avoiding emotion – but the very fact that there is a means in place to handle the emotion is evidence that the emotion exists.
The trick in that case is for the person in question to own their feelings, rather than using the habitual means of disowning them – sometimes this connection of the emotion to the person who owns it is enough to shake the programmed responses loose all by itself. This is because actually feeling what has been pushed away for so long, and perhaps in direct contradiction of what they were told (“you will not feel” is a common, if frequently only implied, message in programming)… feeling for probably the first time in decades, is enough to make that individual stop and think – and thought is the enemy of programming.
Programming is intended to undercut thought, to happen before thought can intervene or to be carried out by members of the system so conditioned to obedience that they never think for themselves. This is why programming relies on the emotional overwhelm caused by trauma. Fear, guilt, and shame can short-circuit our logic and make an end-run around our common sense. These feelings can manipulate us with beliefs that are compelling and unavoidable, despite their obvious lack of rationality. They can make us act in ways that logic and common sense would talk us out of, or they can prevent us from acting even when we know we should, or they can skew our perceptions so we see what isn’t there or fail to see what everyone else can in a situation, subsequently skewing our reactions as well.
Tying programming to primal emotions – so that we are afraid to look at it, let alone touch it, so that we are terrified to speak of it, so that we are ashamed of what we have done and don’t want anyone else to know, so that we feel guilty for things that happened to us or to others and don’t want to admit (sometimes even to ourselves) the magnitude of our own feelings of guilt – this emotional bondage traps us into continued obedience. The emotions can remain powerful and strong even decades after the last time a programmer has worked with us.
But the emotions are ours. They are not the programming. They are our feelings – our fear, our shame, our guilt – which we allow to dominate us because we don’t dare to argue with them or fight them or in any way test their validity – or because we believe we can’t bear to feel them and we are willing to “do anything” to avoid them or make them stop.
And so the programming – the actual message that is protected by our own emotional response – also remains alive within us.
Separate the feeling from the message, and the message can be evaluated for what it is without the emphasis and strength and power that our own emotions have added to it.
Trauma drives home the messages and lessons of programming with emotional strength and force – but we don’t have to let the programming keep drawing its power from us. We are giving it the only power it has – and we can take that power away from it too. If we accept the feelings instead of being willing to “do anything” to escape them, then the threat inherent in the programming (“obey me or else…”) is suddenly an empty bluff.
This is a reframe of how programming is commonly viewed – but reframing programming into an approachable and workable phenomenon that is amenable to change (and it is) is part of what healing involves. Healing is possible if we are willing to look beyond our own assumed limitations and risk the discomfort of changing the status quo.
Discrimen etiamnunc porro.
Hazard, yet forward.
(School motto of Seton Hill College)
This is such a well done, informative and useful post! It is the kind of resource I’d like to be able to share with clients I work with regarding these issues. I love that your theme, to me, is hopeful. So often I have heard survivors feel hopeless in the face of programming and its aftermath. I agree that thought is indeed the enemy of programming and that reframing in the way you do is very helpful. I also strongly believe that healing is possible and that with help survivors can overcome all types of abuse.
Thank you again,
Kathleen Young
Comment by kyoungpsyd — May 17, 2009 @ 4:19 pm
Hi kyoungpsyd –
Thank you for the compliments, and welcome to the blog.
The hopeful theme is important to me. There seems to be damn little hope expressed regarding undoing mind control programming — but it’s not so unreasonable to have that hope, and that’s part of my message. It can be done.
Thanks for stopping by — hope to see you around.
Comment by RockerGirl — May 18, 2009 @ 12:12 pm
I have been reading for a while. I am diagnosed DID – for about 1 year.
…my T has indicated my littles inside have told him about incidents of RA / medical abuse /mind control…I don’t know much about the incidents….but your blog all makes perfect sense to me…so someone inside knows.
In you last post I believe you mentioned mirror image twins…my T believes this of me from what those inside have said. Can you explain this more? And how do I know what to look for?
Thanks for your help.
Katydid2
Comment by katydid2 — May 20, 2009 @ 5:12 pm
Hi Katydid2 -
Welcome, and thanks for the comment.
Between what I know personally and what I’ve heard of twinning programs, there are different ways they can be used, and I can’t assume that the uses I know of represent all the possible uses for a twinning program. (In fact, I doubt they do, because I only know of three or four.) But with that caveat, I can tell you what I do know.
The reference I made earlier was in terms of feeling-not feeling — insiders who experienced a lot of trauma or a lot of programming can have a twin of themselves, where one feels the feelings associated with the trauma (pain, fear, horror, physical illness, etc.) and the other just does what is being demanded. This might or might not be a purposeful split – it can happen just out of necessity. A child can’t both feel what’s happening and do what is being demanded, but the feelings still exist and have to go somewhere, so a twin is created so that there are two children to bear the experience.
In this case, my “what to look for” is a guess, since this is something I have heard about from others but it isn’t how things are in our group — but it seems that these twins present in the extremes, either “all feeling” or “no feeling” — so the dichotomy might be a clue that there are actually two separate insiders rather than one.
Twins can be used for purposes of system confusion, and also for system control.
Mirrors – like actual representations of mirrors in your internal world – are an important clue. They can be a lot more than they seem. If you find one, then it is important to find the insider that you know, or that someone in your world knows, who is most closely associated with it, as the starting place for learning about it.
And if you find a mirror, be respectful of it until you understand what it represents for you – don’t plunge into them blindly or assume you know what will help. Breaking the mirror is usually a bad idea, but depending on the specifics of the programming, it isn’t always a bad idea.
In the end, it is the individual system that matters – each one of us is slightly different, because programming (however standardized) is also ALWAYS somewhat individualized, so the final word on what does or does not make sense for your group, what is or isn’t safe, what things do or do not mean – all that has to come from your group. It can’t come from anywhere else.
So build your communication – listen to each other, learn about each other, learn about what happened to each of you, and what meaning was given to those experiences from outside, and what meaning the individual insider gave to their experiences.
Talk to each other. Practice communication and cooperation, build it and maintain it – do it like it’s the most important thing in your life – because it’s the only way to reach the healing we all want.
I’m not sure if that answered your question – it’s a pretty big subject. If there was more you wanted to know, maybe I can add a post on this subject? Let me know.
Good luck – and thanks again.
Comment by RockerGirl — May 20, 2009 @ 8:07 pm